I can't believe we are already in December, Can you?
I really look forward to my Sunday's, because this is the only day I really get to work on my devotional, meditate, journal and rest.
I was reading my new devotional, Deep Waters, lift your Gaze by Amazons best seller, Kim M Clark and oh my, God knew what I needed in this busy season of my life.
In the chapter I was reading it asked to read Genesis chapter 3 and it's about when Eve was tempted in the garden. In one of the questions it asked why do you think God tested Eve?
Of course we know God tested Eve to see if she would obey God, but, my question to God was, "God, why would you even test Eve if you already knew what she was going to do?"I mean God is all knowing. He already knows how we are going to respond in the testings and trials we face. But, I think we don't know how we are going to respond or maybe we think we know and then when we are faced with those tests or trials and we either fail or pass them.
Again my question to God was, why would you test Eve? If you already knew what was in her heart.
When all of a sudden I felt Gods presence and not with an answer but, with a question for me?
Am I enough for you? I have to say it took me back for a minute. I heard that still small voice again
Am I enough, Do you trust me?
A question with a question.
He wanted to expose my own state of being of where I was.
Was God enough for me and Did I trust Him with my life? It pierced my heart to the point that I started weeping, because the truth was exposed that there were certain areas in my life that I didn't fully trust Him with.
He reminded me of all the prayers He had answered in a two year period and yet when those prayers were answered they became not enough, I wanted more, not realizing where my heart was.
Our heart is deceitful. In Jeremiah 17:9 it says;
The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? but God
The real question is I believe is this,
Is He enough when our prayers are answered and even when they are not and do we trust Him with our life and our future? Is He enough for me or us to be satisfied in whatever answer that is?
I know I want God to be enough, because the more I try to attain in this life it will never be enough and it will never satisfy me like my relationship with God will.
My prayer is that God would be our number one source and our number one priority and that He would be enough whether in blessing or famine. He is the only one that can satisfy every inward need and outward need.
" And this same God who takes care of me will supply all of your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. " Philippians 4:19
Are there some areas in your life you have not fully surrendered to God and Is God enough whether he answers or has not yet answered?
May He become our ENOUGH!
Blessings Isabel Perez McCoy